made my day...

Bumper Sticker Logo on my supervisors car: Honk if something falls off

i don't know.. maybe you had to be there... his car is toe.....tow... towa... uuuppppp

sometimes i ask myself why i do the shit i do.... say the shit i say... feel the shit i feel... like... Syolie what's the deal.... i just don't want to feel... sometimes my heart is on my sleeve and that muthafucka is like sewn on there tight as shit and i can't get it off....

there is no rhyme or reason to this thing besides the fact that she is just so beautiful to me and i can't get over it... but i realize that this is an impractical dream... and her friendship is like a little world i can escape to for a few minutes... but then i deal with life (not lyfe) and that shit is a whole different story... bills, friends, chicks, work, parents, relatives.... i don't know....

gotta go..... i'm mesed up.... Syol

sup ya'll.... i know i have been so incognegro right??.... replacing daily posts with total silence and shit..... i'm sorry.... what can i say a niggas in love..... i told one of my best friends i was in love with her and have been since like August..... that i was trying to make my feelings change but the shit wouldn't go away..... and it's like shit went kinda crazy for a moment and i was all emotional and stuff... like what the fuck... this is not Syol.. i don't do the "in love" thing... i do the affection thing.. the fucking around thing.... the fucking thang.... but "in love" what's going on??....feeling ways that didn't make any practical sense.... i wasn't scared or anything... didn't want any big fireworks display... i was just like hey i'm in love with you... let me deal with that.. ya know... she was like... cool... we are like.. cool... but i guess all changes come with some sparks.... life and thangs....

i don't know.... she's so different.. smart, beautiful, sexy and all that stuff but like... her mind and her heart are sooo deep.... she'll say something and i'll be like... see... that's why i need you in my life (in my head of course)... i was telling her about this item i passed up in Walmart and it was $9.95 and she says something like ..." all those 9.95's add up..." and i was just like... man she said the right thing to me.. like that was missing from my mind and she gave it to me... she does that a lot... i don't know... all i can say is beautiful.....

i wanna stay cool... always be friends... always just be whatever we are... always try to put faith in the cosmic connection.... labels and ties... abandoned... people wear them out anyway.... just want to set her free.... like she do me....

even though it's not like numero uno... i'm still all wantin the pussy... she think i'm playin.... every night... in my dreams.... her legs be wrapped around me... i'm in that pussy deep and hard... soft and wettttttt.... whew... ya'll have no idea... and she tells me she loves me... and i know she does..... i know she does... and all i can think is.... i want to love her always.... not just the forever always... but in all ways...... love man..... oh lawd.. help me...

9 more dayzzzzzzzzzzzz.... Syol

Slowly #7

Apologies
Never wanted to want you
Like I do
Make the complicated…… complicated
Send your mind to racing
Fucking up the equilibrium
You try so hard to maintain
Just wanted to ease the pain
Your going through
And I was going through too
Because I love you… too hard

Apologies
For sharing dreams
Of your thighs on my shoulders
And if how I wanted to hold you
Kiss and console you
Left out the part
Of loving you
As the sun shines
Through the window as your lying in bed
Just some shit in my head
Which would of went better off not said
Or done
In hindsight
Ohhhhhhh…. I didn't mean to turn you on
But she makes my heart ignite
Despite the best of intentions

Apologies
For not remembering
The promises you made
For the fears that pervade you
I wanted to stay true
To your heart and mind
No impracticality
Just wanted to let you know
This shit is a powerful thing
That I hear your voice ring
"Like a bell anyway….Don't give up your independence… Unless it feels so right… Nothing good comes easily…."
I'm your friend, your friend, your friend
I promise… I'm your friend

... and i swear... i'm okay..... Syolie

and breathe.... on my neck...

i wanna feel it.... i feel it in my dreams it seems...

Butterfly wings and so many things
I see inside of you
Like the honey sweetness of your voice
I want to lick off the spoon
I want you to let me do these things

Time for stretching those butterfly wings

Love art life
How you know the truth
And want to live it
All those unanswered questions
And unfulfilled fantasies
Ripe ready for reality
Why you?? Well why not me??
Don't you see…. I'll am a simple thing.. but

I want to see you stretch those butterfly wings…

She is beauty… possessing
I'm just guessing they did a number on you
Let me be the reflection
Let me show you affection
So I can make you soar
….Let me blow on your

Butterfly wings…(and so many things I see inside of you)


baby what i gotta do to please you.... baby anything you say i'll do... cause i only wanna make you happy.... from the bottom of my heart it's true.....

this shit is fuckin hard..... Syol

so much stuff has gone down i really don't know where to start.... the day before thanksgiving my little cousin Taylor got hit by a car crossing the street... so that has me quiet for the moment.. and besides that i have been busy moving and dealing with some personal issues... i will write about it when i return.. right now i'm just dealing with a sea of strange understanding.... i don't know when i'll be at this thing again... but i know i'll be back..

if anyone would like a postcard from Paris just email me syol7@hotmail.com and leave your address... i'll be there after christmas holidays for a week.... i'll be glad to drop ya'll a line....

God Is Love....... Jata Syol Free